Labor Day

"IT's Monday...I ain't got no work...I aint got shit to do.....From one of my all time FAV movies..."Friday"..love me some Chris Tucker.  I love anyone who can make me laugh cus Im a goofy person and young at heart.  I posted a poem yesterday..called Love's Return.  I wrote that poem, because after this last relationship...so much pain..so much tearing down of eachothers spirit.  I just never wanted to love again.  Love brings "happiness, but it also brings much "pain".  I will always love him because we share a son together, only it will be a different kinda of love.  It's funny how you think, when your in love, that you are going to be together for ever..and just out of the blue...It's over..just like that. All that love shared..all the good times...all the memories....just shattered and you have no control over stopping it from happening.  Life is crazy.  So after doing much soul searching...I realize I can't let the pain of this break up keep me from ever loving again..but if I never do again...I just feel blessed to ever had loved at all.  Love is a blessing and not everyone experiences "Real..True...Love".  I did love the feeling of it though.  It makes your heart sing and your face lights up when you see that person...I want to share that and feel that again someday.  So I have decided to move from this relationship and not shut myself off, but be open to whatever God has in store for me.  I have always prayed for a very special kind of love...a love that can only come from God.   That is the love I am waiting for.  Someone I can be myself with...who isn't fearful of what if's...who trust me and loves me with their whole entire heart...who knows that are love is so meaningful that trust should never be a factor.  I want the oneness of the soul..when two souls are connected and intertwined as one mind, one spirit.. one soul.  I hear old people talk of loves like that but that existed many years ago.  To find a love like that...a true soul mate...is like a needle in a haystack- anymore.  I know that is my own little fairytale, but a beautiful one...dont you think..  Until then, I will just be the dreamer.  I have the craziest imagination...to dig into who I really am,. would amaze most...People think they know me, but really...they have only touched the surface of "Who I Really Am"....But my poem was just a ressurection of my feelings for "Love"...Never let one person determine your whole life and decission you make thereafter.  Life is meant to be Lived because before you know it....it has passed you by and all you are left with is regrets and what if's.  Life Lesson