"Forgiveness"

I just recently found out my father had a massive heart attack.  He has to undergo open heart surgery.  If you are a prayer, please pray for my father.  He and I haven't spoken in about 18 years.  My father was just a father of high standards.  He wanted much more for my life than what I actually chose for myself.  He thinks my life was in vain and assumed I would turn out just like my mother.  He was very wrong.  I don't really know him anymore.  He felt that because I had children, that I ruined my life.  But what he doesn't understand, is that my children have made me who I am today.  They were all blessings to me and I will never regret the day that I had any of my boys.  They keep me uplifted and they are truly who I live for.  I thought in my heart that if I never thought of my dad, I could just bury all the feelings along with my loss of him.  I was totally wrong.  What I realized is, him walking out on me all them years ago, really hurt me.  I had buried it for so long, that not once in my heart did I think I was bitter.  Upon finding out about his heart attack, my first reaction was no reaction.  I just didn't know what to feel or how to react to someone who is now a stranger to me.  After I sat and spoke with God, It was revealed to me that I had much anger stored up inside of me.  I have lived my life for so long with the thought of "Out of sight, Out of mind".  If you are a person that thinks that way, I am here to tell you today that you are very wrong.  You may bury feelings, but they never leave you.  I had to find that out the hard way.  God opened my heart and allowed all the feelings of hurt, love and anger for my father, just fill my soul.  I realized that when my dad was in my life, He was a great dad and I loved him very much.  I realize, I still love my father very much.  I never knew I had all the anger that came out of me, but God wanted to show me this, so that I may forgive my father.  Forgiveness is the key factor to maintaining a healthy and close relationship with the lord.  He let me know that this is my chance to reach out to my father, while he is still here, and let him know- "Hey dad...I still love you and I forgive you".  Many of us aren't given a second chance.  I feel very blessed that God revealed my true feelings to me because, had he not.....I would have not been allowed entrance into heaven.  This time that we are in....These last times on earth...is a time for love and forgiveness.  Sometimes the ones who hurt us the most tends to be the hardest to forgive.  I urge you...If you love someone and haven't forgiven them for whatever they may have done to you...Now is the time.  Not later....but right now.  Time is winding down....so to think you may have time to do it later, is to allude yourself.  Don't wait till it's too late because with unforgiveness in your heart.... you will lose your relationship with God and most importantly...your soul.  Forgiveness will bless you in ways un-imaginable.  Just because you forgive someone, doesn't mean you have to have a relationship with them or even have them as a part of your life.  But it will give you freedom.  Just some new knowledge I wanted to share.  Love and Forgiveness is the key if you want to be raptured.  Don't let your pride, get you left behind.