Been Awhile.....

I have not written anything in about a month.  I got so side tracked.  I allowed an action on someone else's part...to distract me and consume me to the point of turning away from what keeps me alive on the inside.  That will never be a possibility in my life anymore.  I am now awakened.  I am a perfect
example of how one thing can side track you from all that God has for you to do.  I allow satan to steal many things from me and now I have grown tired of passing up blessings.  This person's action lead me in a tail spin of events to almost change me as the loving person that I know I am.  It hurt me to the dephs of my core-being and allowed.....depression to manifest itself in my life.  Depression is only demon oppression and it can take over your life and control your life if you let it.  I almost did.  Satan was telling me all kind of lies and I was buying into it.....all of it.  One of my spiritual sisters had a nice Godly talk with me... her words... that I know were of him....., hit me like a train and woke me the "Hell Up".  So I am now experiencing an awakening of my spirit that had been so quenched by sadness.  Sadness is just another form of demon oppression that comes from an active demon surrounding you......watching you.....always in waiting......  But it's over for me now and I see again and now I am back on my journey and very excited about it as well.  I love to write.  I have so much inside of me to get out...that it literally makes me go crazy when I don't get these feelings out of me.  I am back to writing my poems also.  I told myself and God that I would be finished with my poem book by January and yet...I have allowed myself to be rechained to satan and his army and really all I did was lose time.  It's is my dream and at the end of it lies a blessing and the question I have to ask myself ...."at all times...."How bad do you want it?"  I have to say...in light of all that I have "Allowed" myself to go through and all the feelings I "Allowed" myself to feel has caused, such a huge awakening....I just cant be chained that way .....so I say...."NO MORE".  We are in a time as I have said once before and will say again....."The windows of Heaven are open".  In saying this...I say things are going to happen on large scales....Time is winding down and God is Ready.......Just take a look at the news....the papers......the movies that are hitting the big screen.....hell... open your door and just look out....and I mean "Really look out".  Things are getting worst and will only progress.  So as a messenger of God it is my job and my duty to give the message to all who will listen.  The times that you have heard in your households...in passing......through hear-say.......the "End" times are here and things will start to happen and all you can do is open your eyes at that point....and then you will know.  That is why this is also the time when God is bestowing "Big" blessings....now is the time to seize them.  If you want God to give you your heart's desire.....now is the time to ask it of him....but I should warn you....as you pay a price by handing your soul over to the devil........There is also a price you must pay to God....."All you are doing is paying your debts back" for all God has blessed you with in your life.  He will ask you to worship only him.....to serve only him......but it's not easy.  It is not easy because you will under go many test from satan....you will have to sacrifice much.....but when you get through it.........The blessing you have waited and asked for.........is right there.......I want that.  I have a huge desire of the heart and I WANT IT.  So therefore.....I will not allow satan to have another strong hold in my life.  He wants to keep me from writing and publishing this book....because he knows that it is God inspired.  Inspired from God for me to write and with it...will come "Many" blessings....You see when you are a child of God.....you only "Allow"...only you...Allow satan into your life...into your being....and when you get tired of "Allowing" him access....you have the power of God to just stop it dead in its track.  This time is the only time we all be granted power of this magnitude....Blessing are being giving...the question you have to pose to yourself is only one........."How much do I want it".......